Just Smile With Me :)

 
 

Reviewing my past blog entries (especially the private ones) brought a pinch of embarrassment on my part. I never knew I can be that SOOOO dramatic… Maybe, I’ve encountered such experiences for the very first time, and worse, I’ve encountered those all at once…

So if you are to ask if I’m okay,,, I can smile with all my heart now, even though it’s not that 100% but still…

Last night, the moment I’ve arrived here at my crib, maraming good news akong na-receive. SOOO GOOD to the point that tears almost fell. I’ve rushed to my room, locked the door and, oh well, rained poured down… A’last, in this span of my so-called DARK AGE this year,,, I had a good cry… NAIIYAK KO NA DIN LAHAT! And it felt good… bursting all the mixed emotions inside. My pillows and stuffs toys are the witnesses. I’m slowly coming back…

The thing that’s making me sad right now is my grandma. Umalis na siya dito sa house. Hayyy… There were times kasi na I’m almost neglecting her because I’ve been busy with the school stuffs and I did have only limited time to talk to her. Well, babalik pa naman siya. Nakakalungkot lang talaga… Well, I think it’s for the betterment of, oh well… I believe realizations occured… hehe

I think everything’s getting back to normal… Well, it depends upon my choice naman… If I choose to be bothered by stuffs that are NOT WORTHY of my precious time, then who’s the loser diba? Ako din…

Maraming tumulong sa akin… Lots of advices… lots of friends… lots of concerned people… And I really appreciate that. Ang dami kong na-realize. Although minsan, yung iba eh nabobother na din and nagiging affected sa mga kadramahan ko sa buhay,,, I’m so sorry… wag nio na lang akong pansinin… Just smile with me… hehe… Thanx a lot guys ( you know who you are… ang dami nio eh…).

Well, babangitin ko na alng yung mga UNEXPECTED peepz.

• sa taong twice kong naka-qtt n kahit may sariling problem eh swak na swak pa rin ang advices sa akin… in fairness, nakatulong ang “lamyerda” advice mo.
• sa dalawang taong concern sa akin dahil may nalaman silang not-so-good-news sa other side of the issue. thanx! di nio na ko kailangang i-zoom zoom at i-warp warp. the mere fact na concern kayo sa akin, super touched na ako.
• sa taong kinaiinisan ko nung app pa lang ako pero isang upuan lang, sandamakmak na lessons ang natutunan ko. tama ka. hindi ako dapat magpatalo. wala akong dapat talikuran. kailangan kong harapin. salamat. pero mas magaling parin talaga ang rc cainta sa cheering. hehe
• sa taong pinagbubuhusan ko ng kaparanoidan ko sa life. salamat at andiyan ka sa tuwing nangangailangan ako ng kausap. nahihiya na nga ako sau kasi marami akong bagay na nailalabas sa iyo na kahiyahiya na kasi nga, paranoid na nga ako. hehe. malaking bagay na yung nakikinig ka sa akin.
• at sa taong kahit hindi ko na nakakausap masyado in person eh nagagawa parin akong payuhan through text and ym,,, super na-appreciate ko iyon. may paki-alam ka parin pala sa akin. your words moved me. and kasama na din yung mere fact na you care. maraming salamat.

I LOVE MY SELF… And I won’t let some crappy moments ruin my 20 years of living. Exam lang ito ni God,,, kung paano ko maia-apply lahat… And I can’t believe I can be that strong pala… Shocks!

Malapit na… malapit na

Again, thanks a lot! Makakabawi din ako sa inyo balang araw

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I may say that I’m just ok
I may smile all through the way
I may laugh hard as if I’m not worrying
I may talk a lot as if I know what I’m saying.
And if one time
You’d get to see,
What’s really inside of me,
Why I try to be funny and crazy, PLEASE…
Don’t ask why…
JUST PLEASE SMILE WITH ME

~ by geexie on September 22, 2007.